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finding my way

Month: February, 2016

Yet another season.

I am in a season of waiting. And let me tell you it sucks. I feel like I have to wait for everything, school to be over, my year off to start and yes I know, a relationship. I sat down with my youth pastor the other night and spilled my heart, because I was hurting and felt like the only one going through something like this. We talked, laughed and prayed. By the end of our little chat, I was feeling ten times better about this season that I was in. In a nutshell, I was told that I need to live in the moment that I am in, or I would be missing key ministry moments that will guide me and shape me as I continued on the journey with God. After youth, I dropped off a friend at her house and went home, mulling over the conversation. The minute I got home, the enemy began pushing at me where he knows he can. My level of stress. I recognized this and texted some close friends that I needed prayer. Let me tell you that we serve a faithful God. The feeling went away and I got ready for bed, knowing full well how much work there was still to be done, but there was peace instead of stress. My full week is now done, I do have a busy weekend ahead of me, but I am entering into this weekend with a sense of peace.

Blessings + hugs,

Nat

Called me higher

“Called me higher” by All Sons and Daughters.
I could just sit
I could just sit and wait for all Your goodness
Hope to feel Your presence
And I could just stay
I could just stay right where I am and hope to feel You
Hope to feel something againAnd I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls downBut You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord And I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy light the path before me Cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord

Background story on this song, me and a friend decided to check out Creekside church a couple of weeks ago and I loved it all. I want to go back, but that’s another story for another day. The worship leader told a bit of his backstory and how he had ended up in Creekside, this song playing a role in that transition. The song talks about how we can sit and wait for him to come back. Get too comfortable. I don’t know about you, but I have found that sometimes there are times where I like where my life is at, my friends, my future but the God I serve has a sense of humor. He calls me deeper, he calls me higher, to farther is kingdom. To show his love. To be his hands and feet to those who are hurting. And I will go to the ends of this earth if that’s what it takes. Take my future plans for instance, I wanted to be a nurse for the longest time. Now I am going to school for social work at this point. I spent a lot of time deciding and praying about not taking sciences last year and no math this year and let me tell you that we serve a faithful God. He has been nothing but faithful to me. Sometimes there has been times where I don’t understand, I get mad at him. But his plan is always better than what I had planned, funny how it works that way. Back to the song, I encourage you all to look up this song. Close your bedroom door and dance, blast in your car, whatever you do and soak in the faithfulness of the one who created you.
Nat.