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Month: April, 2016

“Real me”

I was making dinner when I decided to turn on a Francis Chan podcast. He starts out by saying he has some sins to confess, and he believes that he needs to confess him publicly. He says he needs forgiveness for lying. Pretending to be better and know everything. He shared some stories about how he had trouble comprehending and understanding and because of this, he didn’t feel like he fit in. I was thinking this over as I stood at the counter, dog at my feet waiting for a bite, grating cheese. Growing up, I pretended a lot in school, because I didn’t understand what the teacher was talking about, or I got a different answer. Then the Lord placed on my heart, instagram. Yes, I am talking about all social media in general. I couldn’t tell you one picture that I have posted that I think I look terrible in. I think personally, I look good in all the selfies, I like all the landscapes and pretty trees I have posted. I have gotten my friends approval before I post a picture, asking “Is this instagram worthy”? I am lying to myself, and to others, because I am not all around perfect like my social media seems. I have breath in the morning that could drop a horse, and my hair is 90% frizz and 10% product, though it always looks good in my instagram pictures. You don’t ever see pictures of me with mascara dripping down my cheeks, or snot running out my nose. (Sorry for that image) But seriously people, I have lied about my image. I have made it seem like I have it all together, but this girl sure doesn’t have her life together. But I am not defined by how many likes I get on instagram, how many retweets on twitter. It matters about who I am in Christ. I am forgiven. I am loved. More then I can imagine, and thats a whole lota love. One song, I can’t think of the song but the lyrics say that my heart is a cup and your love is an ocean. Where I am trying to go with this blog post, is I am trying to be real with you guys. I am tired of putting on an image, just so people don’t see the real me. The me who is truly loved by Jesus Christ. I am not saying I am going to go delete all my instagram pictures, I am saying that I am looking at image with a new perspective. I am putting my Jesus goggles on.

Be thankful in every season.

You probably just read those words, looked outside and thought to yourself “come on Nat, it is snowing in the middle of April, I am not very thankful right now.” I am not talking about that kind of season, but I mean I am kind of thankful because we might get a snow day. (I have a test tomorrow) I am instead talking seasons of life that you go through. I wrote a blog post a little while ago about the season of waiting I am in, but this is kind of an expansion on that blog post. Today, the ladies choir at W-O sang at a church in New Hamburg. The pastor stood up and one of the first things he said was “This is a day the Lord has made, let us rejoice in it.” I was thinking about as I was 4wheeling with my brother in this mini snowstorm. Every single day, no matter what is going on in your life, God has planned out the very last detail. Every season, he is still there. We all get stuck in these ruts and it feels like nothing is going right, but we still need to be thankful. Because the creator of the universe, made that day. I probably sound like a broken record to you right now about being thankful. But I know, going through my day at school and work, I meet people who like to complain, and I meet people who are thankful for everything. Even the little things. I have customers who get so excited that we have one last monster cookie that they have been craving all day. Where I am going with this, is we all go through seasons. Bad and good. No matter what, we need to be thankful, even if it sucks and you just want to cry and eat your weight in chocolate. I do not blame you, I’ve been there. I met up with a friend who I have not seen in a very long time due to her moving away. When she moved, I didn’t understand. I was hurting. I missed her. But I am thankful for the time that I did get to spend with her, and now the random dinner dates that we have now. I hope this blog post has been an encouragement to whatever season you are going through right now.

Nat.