“Real me”

by joy soaked words

I was making dinner when I decided to turn on a Francis Chan podcast. He starts out by saying he has some sins to confess, and he believes that he needs to confess him publicly. He says he needs forgiveness for lying. Pretending to be better and know everything. He shared some stories about how he had trouble comprehending and understanding and because of this, he didn’t feel like he fit in. I was thinking this over as I stood at the counter, dog at my feet waiting for a bite, grating cheese. Growing up, I pretended a lot in school, because I didn’t understand what the teacher was talking about, or I got a different answer. Then the Lord placed on my heart, instagram. Yes, I am talking about all social media in general. I couldn’t tell you one picture that I have posted that I think I look terrible in. I think personally, I look good in all the selfies, I like all the landscapes and pretty trees I have posted. I have gotten my friends approval before I post a picture, asking “Is this instagram worthy”? I am lying to myself, and to others, because I am not all around perfect like my social media seems. I have breath in the morning that could drop a horse, and my hair is 90% frizz and 10% product, though it always looks good in my instagram pictures. You don’t ever see pictures of me with mascara dripping down my cheeks, or snot running out my nose. (Sorry for that image) But seriously people, I have lied about my image. I have made it seem like I have it all together, but this girl sure doesn’t have her life together. But I am not defined by how many likes I get on instagram, how many retweets on twitter. It matters about who I am in Christ. I am forgiven. I am loved. More then I can imagine, and thats a whole lota love. One song, I can’t think of the song but the lyrics say that my heart is a cup and your love is an ocean. Where I am trying to go with this blog post, is I am trying to be real with you guys. I am tired of putting on an image, just so people don’t see the real me. The me who is truly loved by Jesus Christ. I am not saying I am going to go delete all my instagram pictures, I am saying that I am looking at image with a new perspective. I am putting my Jesus goggles on.