joy soaked words

finding my way

Month: February, 2017

F R E E D O M

Where do I even start? Well, let me tell you something cool. God has totally set me free from all fear and anxiety. ALL FEAR IS GONE. ALL ANXIETY IS GONE. GOD IS SO GOOD. Fear is something that I have always struggled with, and I have been praying to be set free from fear from a very long time now. Coming here to YWAM Mazatlan, I experienced more fear then I ever had, and had 2 very scary anxiety attacks. Let me tell you that we serve a faithful God. WE SERVE A FAITHFUL GOD. One week agoish, we got together and prayed freedom over strongholds that had taken control of our lives. God broke those strongholds. I experienced freedom like I never had before. Right now in Mazatlan is Carnival, a week long, huge party thing. We went out to evangelize and just show people how much God loves them. How much he desires to have a relationship with them. If you would have asked me to go out and evangelize to people a week ago, I couldn’t have done it. I would freeze and not be able to talk or get the words out that I wanted to. Last night, that all changed. I had so much energy, (I still do, even though I am running on 5 hours of sleep) and I was able to just reach out to people. To love on them. To show them how much God desires to have a relationship with them. To talk to them. With no fear. Guys, I even met an english speaker, like literally day made.

We are off of classes for two weeks, Carnival runs until Monday night and then we have most of the rest of the week off. This is part of my outreach, I will spend two weeks here in Mazatlan for Carnival, and then in April I am off to Chile. YEAH! So, if you didn’t see my Instagram post, this gal is off to Chile. I am beyond excited to see what God is going to do in my team, I am going with some pretty awesome people.

I feel like I have so much to say, yet I don’t know what to say. There is so much going on, God is doing so much in my heart. In my life. Changing me. Stretching me. I am a piece of clay, and he is the potter.

I just want to stand on a mountain and shout about how good God is. Good, doesn’t even begin to describe it. Great doesn’t even begin to describe you God. One of my close friends here, asked us to tell her our favorite animal and our favorite piece of nature and why. I said dogs, because they are so snuggly and loving. I chose the mountains as my favorite piece of nature, because they are strong, majestic and breathtaking. She then tells us that our favorite animal attributes is what we look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend, and our favorite piece of nature is how we view God. Strong. Majestic. Breathtaking.

Prayer requests:

  • That God would continue to give me the energy needed
  • That I would continue to trust in his plan for my life
  • That people’s hearts would be so open here to receive God’s love for their life
  • That God would continue to pour down here, filling us up, so we can continue to pour out

God you are so good. You are faithful. You are worthy. You are everything I need. Everything I want. Thank you.

Hugs + blessings,

Nat

This is my heart on paper // Another update

Yet another update from the world of Natalie’s mind. It has been a crazy week. Full of sickness and of healing. Learning and a whole lot of grace. There was quite a few people sick this week, me being one of them. This is the second time I have been sick here and I feel so adultish. Like I can literally do anything adult and rock it. I have also witnessed people being healed, praise Jesus for that. Our speaker last week spoke on the kingdom of God and evangelism, this was one of my favorite weeks so far. Our speaker was so full of passion and love for God, it was truly incredible.

Outreach! The topic I am sure you are all waiting to hear about. Well, I am still waiting too. I can tell where the 4 teams are going, but not where I am going. Yet. There is one team going to Bolivia, one team going to Chile, and two teams are going to Mexico. Cool eh?

I know that I say this every single time I feel like, but I freaking love it. I love it here so much. Like this season of life is so awesome. God, you are so good.

This is my heart on paper. Well, I guess my heart on website. I journal every morning and a lot of it is me pouring out my heart to God. A whole lot of praises, and a whole lot of tears get poured out on those papers. I wish you guys were here with me. Brushing your toes through the sand and pouring hot sauce on everything (I do not do this). Eating endless tacos and burning your tongue on hot churros. I wish you were here to experience everything I experience.

Caffeine is so needed here. I drink coffee for the taste, not for the energy it gives me, but it’s the other way around here. My brother gave me an Aeropress right before coming here and it has to be the best gift I have ever been given. That machine makes really good coffee. Really good coffee. You all need to get yourselves one.

If you knew me before me coming here, you would have known that I was a pretty introverted person. Coming here, I have not been able to find a spot alone, and strangely enough I’m okay with that. I have had to change everything about how I reenergize, but I love these people so its okay.

Prayer requests:

  • That I would have patience, because everything runs on Mexican time. (It takes forever to go anywhere it feels like)
  • That God’s will would be done in the outreach area, that we would all end up where we are most needed.

I love you and (only kinda miss you guys cause I love it so much here)

Hugs + Blessings,

Nat.

Would I have gone?

Our lecture fees are due on Friday, and a lot of people still owe the full amount. Praise Jesus, mine are all paid off. We started this week with a new speaker talking on the Father Heart of God. He started this week off by asking us a few questions. How many people jumped on a plane or grabbed a bus with no money other then what was in their pockets, trusting that God was going to provide. How many people don’t have money, but still owe their lecture fees. How many people wouldn’t have come, if they didn’t have the money. How many would have come if they didn’t have the money. I put up my hand when he asked if we would have come, even if we didn’t have the money.

After class I was thinking about all of this, and I can honestly say I am not sure if I would have come if I didn’t have the money. What a monumental (I looked up the definition of this, and it means huge significance, like how appropiate eh?) step of faith. To step on the bus with not much more then the change in your pocket and trust that God is going to provide for you. For me to come here, was a step of faith and I still have money left over for outreach. Somebody had said something that really hit me, that has been on my mind the past couple of days. Your money is not yours. I get so caught up in how much money is in my bank account, and knowing how hard I worked for that money, yet it’s not mine. It all belongs to God, and I need to use it to bring praise to his name. God has really been changing that in me, and my need for materialism. To just bless others.

I think it is so interesting, I get asked a lot how I am doing, or how my day is going. I have my off days, but I am filled with so much joy it just spills over. Like for the most part I can’t stop smiling. Like God is so good. He is so faithful. I just want to climb a mountain and shout that to the earth.

This week teaching is on the Father Heart of God, and God has taught me a lot these past two days. I’m just gonna give a shout out to my dad, cause I know you will end up reading this. You are awesome, and I am so blessed to have you as my dad. I love you. Because I such an awesome and loving dad, I was finding it hard to understand the Father heart of God. God has just been showing me how much better of a dad he is, he is perfect and loves me way more then I can even imagine. He loves me more then the grains of sands in the world and the drops in the ocean. Every single time I look at the ocean, and the sand I am taken back (which is a lot because we are like 30 steps from the ocean).

Guys, can I just say that I love it here. I love it so much. So stinking much. I literally cry every time that I think about how good God is by bringing me here. This season of life rocks. I hope this update provides you a little glimpse into my life here. I wish everybody could experience and learn what I am learning here.

Hugs,

Nat