Would I have gone?
by joy soaked words
Our lecture fees are due on Friday, and a lot of people still owe the full amount. Praise Jesus, mine are all paid off. We started this week with a new speaker talking on the Father Heart of God. He started this week off by asking us a few questions. How many people jumped on a plane or grabbed a bus with no money other then what was in their pockets, trusting that God was going to provide. How many people don’t have money, but still owe their lecture fees. How many people wouldn’t have come, if they didn’t have the money. How many would have come if they didn’t have the money. I put up my hand when he asked if we would have come, even if we didn’t have the money.
After class I was thinking about all of this, and I can honestly say I am not sure if I would have come if I didn’t have the money. What a monumental (I looked up the definition of this, and it means huge significance, like how appropiate eh?) step of faith. To step on the bus with not much more then the change in your pocket and trust that God is going to provide for you. For me to come here, was a step of faith and I still have money left over for outreach. Somebody had said something that really hit me, that has been on my mind the past couple of days. Your money is not yours. I get so caught up in how much money is in my bank account, and knowing how hard I worked for that money, yet it’s not mine. It all belongs to God, and I need to use it to bring praise to his name. God has really been changing that in me, and my need for materialism. To just bless others.
I think it is so interesting, I get asked a lot how I am doing, or how my day is going. I have my off days, but I am filled with so much joy it just spills over. Like for the most part I can’t stop smiling. Like God is so good. He is so faithful. I just want to climb a mountain and shout that to the earth.
This week teaching is on the Father Heart of God, and God has taught me a lot these past two days. I’m just gonna give a shout out to my dad, cause I know you will end up reading this. You are awesome, and I am so blessed to have you as my dad. I love you. Because I such an awesome and loving dad, I was finding it hard to understand the Father heart of God. God has just been showing me how much better of a dad he is, he is perfect and loves me way more then I can even imagine. He loves me more then the grains of sands in the world and the drops in the ocean. Every single time I look at the ocean, and the sand I am taken back (which is a lot because we are like 30 steps from the ocean).
Guys, can I just say that I love it here. I love it so much. So stinking much. I literally cry every time that I think about how good God is by bringing me here. This season of life rocks. I hope this update provides you a little glimpse into my life here. I wish everybody could experience and learn what I am learning here.