We opened gifts this morning, due to travel plans affecting the actual Christmas day, complete with cinnamon buns and endless cups of coffee. I opened a book that I’ve wanted to read for a little bit now, I mean it was just released a couple of months ago. This book – The Ruthless Elimination of Hurry by John Mark Comer, needs to be on everybody’s bookshelf, and their reading list for 2020. I am only about 30 pages in, and I feel like it’s already rocking my world.
I hurry. I am fully aware of the hurry issue that is very apparent in my life. I fill my days with a constant busy, often going from one meeting to another, finding time between all of that to quickly finish a paper and study for a test, before rushing off to another class. I often catch myself scarfing down a granola bar for lunch and taking my coffee in my YETI because I didn’t have time to enjoy my coffee in a mug, snuggled up in my favorite spot on the couch.
When asked how I am doing, I feel the words “busy” fall out of my mouth before I can stop them.
In Comer’s book, he writes on this idea of the slow love of Jesus. Jesus never did anything fast, he was never running to the next place because he wanted to love people slowly. You can’t love fast, you miss out if you love fast.
“To walk with Jesus is to walk slow, with an unhurried pace. Hurry is the death of prayer and only impeades and spoils our work. It never advances it.– Walter Adams
I just walked out of a semester that was also a season in my life. I hit burn out after camp. I struggled with my job, and how to do it well after already doing it for a year. I was incredibly busy – running a ministry and doing six courses, all while being in 3rd year. It feels like it has been nonstop. Until recently.
This semester, I took a course in spiritual formations. This course was so well timed for me, even though it was a second year course – but after a minor switch, I had to take it. (Rather not a had, but a gift to take it). The class was all about different spiritual disciplines in our lives to deepen our relationship with our creator. One of them, was this whole idea of silence and solitude. I wrote an entire paper on it, after reading countless books on the topic.
Silence and solitude is incredibly hard I learned.
This is coming from somebody who is comfortable with silence.
It’s incredibly hard to sit and listen for the voice of the one who spoke it all into motion. I wanted to move on, get the list of everything I had to do that day, return emails, and write letters. I wanted to stay busy, because I was comfortable being busy.
Our Father calls us to be. Just be. Not to do, but to be.
I need to break up with the busy. I think it’s time I say goodbye.
I need to return to the slow love of Jesus – I don’t even know if fast is in his vocabulary. I need to learn how to love those around me with this kind of slow love. The kind of love that eliminates hurry.
Stick around Reader, if you want to hear more about this type of slow love. About the elimination of hurry, as I dig deeper into what God wants to teach me through this book. Through the discipline of solitude spent with him.