Bring that revival.

Laughter. Joy. Jesus. Tears. Worship. This past weekend I had the opportunity to go to a conference called Fresh Wind. I went into this conference not really sure what to expect, but let me tell you, God moved. The second day we were there, I found myself in a tough place. A place where I felt like I couldn’t do enough to worship the king of the universe. I couldn’t sing, dance, and jump enough to honour his greatness. In a way, I felt small. It was almost refreshing, I had been putting other things first before God in my life and when I got to that point, where I couldn’t do enough to worship him, it was quite an epiphany. Some of the speakers spoke on revival, and let me tell you that there is a revival coming. Bring that revival Jesus. Being a girl who has gone to pitch since grade 7, I found this conference to be a lot like pitch, and then very different in other ways. I always leave pitch with a Jesus high that wears off. I left Fresh Wind with joy in heart and dance in my feet. I left with expectation with what God is doing. I left excited, but not with a Jesus high. Coming back, to church where they don’t worship in the same way that I did on the weekend was odd, I had become very comfortable with jumping, dancing, and singing louder then normal. God became like a new person to me, he set my heart ablaze for him. Something I loved, was called “fire tunnels”. Basically the ministry team lines up across from each other and you walk down the middle while they are praying and interceding for you. I learned from this “fire tunnel” experience that it’s not all about the feeling. I never felt different walking through that tunnel, but when you look back, there is like 20 people that have just prayed for you. The whole weekend in a whole was A M A Z I N G. B

Hurting Heart.

I was hanging out with friends today at the mall. After countless hours trying on clothes, laughing and finally getting ice cream, we left and drove out of the mall parking lot. We came to a red light and there was a homeless man holding a sign reading “Homeless, any spare change? God bless” I locked eyes with this man, looked into his eyes, eyes that read of pain. My heart hurt for this poor man, it was raining outside and the weather was nasty. I didn’t speak up and say that I wanted to give him some money. I didn’t have anything smaller then a twenty, but looking back now I wish I would have gave it to him. It brings me back to a camp skit that was preformed one summer. A woman was busy getting ready and cleaning her house because Jesus was coming for dinner that night. A man stopped in and asked to use her phone because his car was dead. She replied no because she was too busy getting ready for Jesus to come to her house. Everything had to be perfect. A woman stopped in and asked if she had any spare change so she could take a bus home to her family, “No” replied the woman because she was too busy trying to make everything perfect. Finally, Jesus stopped in and she told him of what had happened, and Jesus said to her that what you do to the least of these, you do to me. The skit ends with Jesus walking away. Why didn’t I say something, reached and gave that man some money? Because I was scared of what other people might think? Nobody else was stopping to give this man money? I didn’t want to part with my hard earned money? It could have been any of these reasons, maybe even all of them. I could have made a little bit of a difference in that man’s life, it doesn’t matter if he uses them to do drugs or buy beer, it’s not for me to judge. Instead, I should have shoved those thoughts aside and done it because that’s what Jesus would have done. It’s a wake up call. What’s your wake up call?

Be still.

Background story on this blog post – my mom and I had gone to an etsy sale a little while back, where I picked up a necklace that reads Be Still. I loved the necklace and the message it portrayed as well. Fast forward to today. I didn’t do any homework and was feeling quite bogged down to say the least. My family went to the musical that W-O was hosting and it was excellent. About half way through the musical I began to think about all the homework I had ahead of me to do. I began to get very stressed out and then I looked down. The words “Be Still” were staring at me. I don’t need to worry about the homework and the to do list now, I need to be still and not worry. When I bought that necklace, I never thought that God would use something like that to still my heart, but hey, we serve a mysterious awesome God. There has been many nights where I will come home from a powerful youth group meeting and the enemy is hitting at me harder then ever. But I need to be still and the Lord will fight for me. I don’t need to get all stressed and worried about getting everything done, cause in time it will get done. I just thought that I would share this little nugget of truth that I learned tonight, cause we serve an awesome God.

Date God?

I love my friends. Last night after youth group, we were all sitting at McDonald’s laughing and carrying on. Relationships came up and one of my dear friends said something that hit me hard. “You need to date God” I need to date God? What does that mean? She explained it to me, but I have been thinking it over since last night. Of course I can’t like literally date God, but I need to have a meaningful relationship with God before I can have a meaningful relationship with somebody. I actually love that term, You need to date God. Not going to lie, my relationship with God has lately sucked. I wake up late and am almost always late to school, let alone spend time with God. After the pastor talks at youth, we have time to sit quietly and see what God has to say to us. This is my favourite time of youth, and I don’t know why I don’t take the time in the morning to do this. At the end of this blog post I am going to leave you with a challenge. I am still in a season of waiting, but things are beginning to come together. Slowly, but God is knitting it together in the most beautiful way. To come back to the “you need to date God,” I am not looking for a relationship anytime soon, because I need to date God before I can even imagine getting in another relationship. To have the best relationship that I can, with a human being, I have to have the best possible relationship I can with God. I can’t wait to see what happens in the next oncoming months, big things are happening. Back to the challenge that I mentioned before, I challenge you to spend 30 minutes or more with God each day. For me, I have no problem spending 30 minutes on social media, but then I say I’m to busy to spend 30 minutes with God. And that’s changing today. I am learning how to date God. I am learning to trust. I am learning how to love like Jesus. And let me tell you, it’s not easy. But it’s worth it.

Nat.

Yet another season.

I am in a season of waiting. And let me tell you it sucks. I feel like I have to wait for everything, school to be over, my year off to start and yes I know, a relationship. I sat down with my youth pastor the other night and spilled my heart, because I was hurting and felt like the only one going through something like this. We talked, laughed and prayed. By the end of our little chat, I was feeling ten times better about this season that I was in. In a nutshell, I was told that I need to live in the moment that I am in, or I would be missing key ministry moments that will guide me and shape me as I continued on the journey with God. After youth, I dropped off a friend at her house and went home, mulling over the conversation. The minute I got home, the enemy began pushing at me where he knows he can. My level of stress. I recognized this and texted some close friends that I needed prayer. Let me tell you that we serve a faithful God. The feeling went away and I got ready for bed, knowing full well how much work there was still to be done, but there was peace instead of stress. My full week is now done, I do have a busy weekend ahead of me, but I am entering into this weekend with a sense of peace.

Blessings + hugs,

Nat

Called me higher

“Called me higher” by All Sons and Daughters.
I could just sit
I could just sit and wait for all Your goodness
Hope to feel Your presence
And I could just stay
I could just stay right where I am and hope to feel You
Hope to feel something againAnd I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls downBut You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord And I could hold on
I could hold on to who I am and never let You
Change me from the inside
And I could be safe
I could be safe here in Your arms and never leave home
Never let these walls down But You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord
You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You lead me Lord
Where You lead me And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy And I will be Yours, oh
I will be Yours for all my life
So let Your mercy light the path before me Cause You have called me higher
You have called me deeper
And I’ll go where You will lead me Lord Where You lead me
Where You lead me Lord

Background story on this song, me and a friend decided to check out Creekside church a couple of weeks ago and I loved it all. I want to go back, but that’s another story for another day. The worship leader told a bit of his backstory and how he had ended up in Creekside, this song playing a role in that transition. The song talks about how we can sit and wait for him to come back. Get too comfortable. I don’t know about you, but I have found that sometimes there are times where I like where my life is at, my friends, my future but the God I serve has a sense of humor. He calls me deeper, he calls me higher, to farther is kingdom. To show his love. To be his hands and feet to those who are hurting. And I will go to the ends of this earth if that’s what it takes. Take my future plans for instance, I wanted to be a nurse for the longest time. Now I am going to school for social work at this point. I spent a lot of time deciding and praying about not taking sciences last year and no math this year and let me tell you that we serve a faithful God. He has been nothing but faithful to me. Sometimes there has been times where I don’t understand, I get mad at him. But his plan is always better than what I had planned, funny how it works that way. Back to the song, I encourage you all to look up this song. Close your bedroom door and dance, blast in your car, whatever you do and soak in the faithfulness of the one who created you.
Nat.

A little epiphany

I was driving home after dropping my co-worker off at work at Baden Coffee. It was snowy and the roads were icy so I had reduced my speed. I was thinking about how I hadn’t set aside time for Jesus in a some time and I told myself I would pull out my bible and spend time with him when I got home. Then it dawned on me, I don’t have to make a scheduled time to spend time with God, he meets us wherever we are. I guess you could call that an epiphany. Right then and there I began to just spill my heart out, it has been a tough couple of days and I needed to get it out. I spent the rest of my ride just talking like he was sitting right beside me. When I got home, I pulled out my laptop and began to do homework, and completely forgot to even read my bible. I saw it later on my bedside table and thought back to the car ride with Jesus. Side note: There was a story that I had printed out, about YWAM, that talked about where Jesus meets you where you are, where you are hurting and where you are broken. He will meet you while you are washing dishes, or you have sunk to the floor in the bathroom in tears. I cry every time I read this story. I just think it is so cool, so humbling that he came down to this earth as a human and experienced pain and heartache. He understands us. I mean God created us, crafted us with the most tender of loves. Back to the beginning, I am learning that he meets us wherever we are, no matter the mess we are in. He creates beauty out of the ashes.